In a time of my life that is proving to be fresh, new, exciting and unfortunately close to falling deep into line with our society's epistemological atrophy, I've started a blog. There was a time, not too distant, that every decision I made was wrapped up in my theology. Now I've found myself running more-or-less on auto-pilot and not using my mind to rationalize through my choices. Understood, spontinaety isn't necessarily a negative action. But I've near lost my base.
I'm now at a point where I need to make a choice. Do I continue to auto-pilot my way through my career and my life or do I press reset and come back to what was essential and is still important to me. This is now, I hope for growth and wisdom later.
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The mark of solitude is silence, as speech is the mark of community. Silence and speech have the same inner correspondence and difference as do solitude and community. One does not exist without the other. Right speech comes out of silence, and right silence comes out of speech. ~Dietrich Bonhoeffer
8 comments:
one cause of atrophy is poor nourishment...
the reset button is for lazy people, who are willing to lose their work in order for a quick fix to their "problems"...
dont go back to what WAS essential, but rather forward to what IS essential
you may have misunderstood my post. i never mentioned "problems" in my deficiency of greater things. what i meant by a reset was more of a realignment of my values and practices to what was once and still should be important. looking back at ones past as inspiration to future progress can be beneficial. i do, however, agree whole-heartedly that my atrophy is due to poor nourishment.
I think I understood you, which is why I surrounded the word problems with those all too flexible " "...
it my fear that people all too often think about what was and what will be, but there is such immense value in the road between WAS and IS...
those who are stuck in the "was" when they should be in the "is" is a valid fear, one that i also hold. however, there are some constants that cannot be abated. one of those things is the controversial topic of "ultimate truth" and another such example is what I'm talking about here-the plain desire to seek that ultimate truth and fully live through my god given potential.
no...not being stuck in the "was" but ignoring the journey between that "was" and that "is"... you were once someone who vigorously sought truth and you now feel like auto-pilot man...I think it is of value to explore how you got to auto-pilot, so that it does not happen in the future....
the space between, my friend
oh, how right you are.
One of the most amazing things someone once taught me was that the Desert Fathers, after years of seeking God in solitude and prayer, realized that if one desires to be close to the most Holy, he must be comfortable with ambiguity.
The nature of youth is to be certain about things--our values, our health, our futures, our theology. If you are searching--and you are--I believe that things continue to become more and more confusing, which leads to frustration and a sense of dullness at times...Until at some point, despite the shadows, God becomes not confusing but simply ineffable.
Oh. And right on for keeping up the struggle...!
"What cannot be spoken in words, but that whereby words are spoken." - Kenopanishad
we can't help but try to use words to speak of our experiences...but those dang desert fathers are right again, we have to be okay with not being able to explain or know...
we can learn a new lanuage, even if it is one of silence.
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